Motivation When I Feel Down
When somethings off, it’s as though I can’t shake the funk off. I feel like I am in a well looking at the light from the bottom, and as much as I try to claw and scrap out of there, I don’t seem to be making any progress. After I try and try with nothing working, how in the world am I expected to see anything positive and work through the obstacles. The answer is that it all stems from internal motivation.
For me, it all starts with being aware of this need. I know that the only person than can change how I think, act, and feel is me. It’s about not thinking only in black and white; rather feeling okay with being in the gray. I know what it’s like to feel real bad, and I haven’t felt that way in a long time now. I have been having way more good days than bad days. When I realize I am not having a good day or having a bad moment, there is a point where I can either make a positive mood to get through the day or time, or I can do something that perpetuates the unhelpful thinking. It is so hard to not think poorly about yourself when things don’t seem to be going your way.
Lately I have been becoming okay with not being good or bad, rather somewhere in the middle. By doing this I am becoming better with accepting uncertainty and the feelings that come with not being in control. I still try to do things that makes me happy and pull me out of my well. It’s like a bartender making a good cocktail. One ingredient doesn’t make it all good or all bad, it takes a variety of tastes and flavors to build a good drink. Similar thing here, one activity won’t pull me out, but rather the combination of various actions helps to create a snowball effect and generate some positive inertia to head in the right direction to eventually pull me up.